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Wednesday, June 17, 2009


Day#83

15thjune`O9
I WONDER WHADI WOULD DO
IF I SAW YOU WHID ANOTHER 'SHE' .
YOU GRAB HER WAIST
AND DRAW HER CLOSE .
HER HANDS AROUND YOURS ,
HEAD RESTING ON YOUR CHEST .
LISTENING TO THE HEARTNEAT
YOU BOTH MIGHT SHARE .
I WONDER WHAD I'LL DO
IF I FOUND OUT I WAS STILL IN TH BLUE ,
WHILE CHEATED BY YOU .I WONDER WHAD I'LL DO
IF I HEAR 'I LOVE YOU' OVER TH PHONE
WHID YOU AT TH END OF MY LINE ,
WHEN I NOTICE YOU ACROSS TH STREET
WHID ANOTHER 'SHE' IN YOUR ARM .
I DONT KNOW WHAD I'LL DO .
SO BABY , JUST TELL ME TH TRUTH .

I FEEL SO LONELY . THIS ISNT WHAD I SHOULD BE FEELING . EVEN WHID YOU , EVERYTHING FELT LIKE BEFORE . EVERYTHING FELT AS IF I HAVENT MET YOU , HAVENT BEEN WHID YOU . FOR DAYS NOW , I FEEL SO EMPTY . AS IF STH IS MISSING . YOU MIGHT HAVE BECOME PART OF ME .BUT STILL , I DOUBT YOUR FEELINGS FOR ME . IS IT REAL OR JUST A PLAYTHING TO YOU ? AM I JUST ANOTHER VICTIM OF YOURS ? AM I JUST ANOTHER GIRL YOU JUST HAD A FLING WHID ? IM SICK FOR SO LONG AND I DOUBT YOU KNOW IT . YOU DONT EVEN BOTHER . WHO'S JSLYN ? THAT , REALLY , BREAKS MY HEART . I REALLY WANTED TO FEEL LOVED , WANTED BY SOMEONE . I NEEDED HE WHO NEEDED ME .

ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME STH ?
SO WHAD IS IT ?
SO WHAD NOW ..?

17thjune`O9
TH COLDNESS YOU SPREAD TO ME . IT ISN'T GETTING ANY BETTER , MY HOPES FOR A MEANINGFUL LIFE IS FADING . I GUESS THIS IS NEVER ENDING . I AM NEVER FATED TO BE A HAPPY SOUL . A HAPPY SOUL WHID A PARTNER . I NEEDED YOU , BUT YOU DIDNT NEED ME . ITS A ONE WAY THING . IT IS SO NOT GNA WORK . BUT LIKE I SAID , YOU HAVE BECOME PART OF ME . LETTING YOU GO IS IMPOSSIBLE . I'LL BLEED .. BUT KEEPING YOU WHID ME KILLS ME .. I CANT SAY TH 3WORDS TO YOU , IT HURTS ME . I TOO CANT SAY THT 3 WORDS TO YOU , IT WOUNDS ME . IM LOST . NO KIDDING , IM LOST . WE HAVE NO COMMUNICATION . WE DONT TALK . WE DRIFT AWAY FROM EACH OTHER . MAYBE , ITS YOU WHO IS DRIFTING AWAY FROM ME . YOUR REPLIES ARE DAMNED COLD . I GET SICK . MENTALLY SICK AND PHYSICALLY SICK . MOST OF ALL , EMOTIONALLY SICK . I WANT TO BE WHID YOU .. I REALLY DO .. BUT YOU DONT ALLOW ME TO . ITS STPD , ITS RTARDED . IT'S JUST TEARING ME APART . I WANT TO STEP OUT OF THIS . I DONT NEED THIS . BUT I NEED YOU . I NEED A HEATER . I WANT TO BE IN TH WARMEST PLACE . I WANT TO BE IN YOUR ARMS .. I WANT EVERYTHING THT BELONGS TO ME .. I WANT YOU ..

&I NEED HE WHO NEEDS ME .

I need someone ..
Who needs me ..
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