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Monday, December 15, 2008

Day #71

Hahahahahs !
Went cwp and bought new earring :D
Hahahahs . Had been eye-ing for tht for i think .. 2years ? Oo '
Hahahahahs !
It's black , and has a cross on it ! :D
It's not rli suprising for a person like me P:
Hahahahs !
Lazy to take a pic of it today P:
Gna upload it some other time :D

Sally didnt tell me Bouquet got a stall tht sells
YONG TAU HOO ! If not i go eat lerh ! D:
Next time i go eat :D
Need earn enough lui 1st .. Argh .
This week i feel slack-ish .
Th working days are still th same , only on wed im going for th outing and not working .
But still , th number of hours im out is abt th same P:
I still feel tht this week is slack-ish ..
Just wait till my scheduler msges me my schedule for this week x___x

Actually wanted to go sch take books th .
We planned all tht liao lorh !
Thn sally last min call me say ,
" Eh jas . Today sch bookshop got open arh ? "
Thn i went to check th booklist .
" O yarh arh . Eh . Huhh ? Eh ?! Eh wait ! Omg ?! THEY NVR OPEN TODAY ?! WTF ! EH I DONT KNOW ! OMG OMG ! "

Thn in th end went to cwp jalan jalan :D
Wanted to wait for Jromeh to finish his training and see if he wanted to play bb whid us x:
I wasnt sure if he would go lols ..
Its just aft his badminton and he would be tired .
And he would most likely go bb whid rj they all rather thn us x:
So i kinda expected to wait for him in vain .

And in th end ,
I wasnt tht disappointed whn i left cwp .
I knew somehow , somewhre , he wouldnt come whid us .
Whid tht mentality , my hopes werent raised so high ,
And th disappointment wasnt that bad .

-Skip skip-

So it rained and i didnt go to vista .
Sally went home at arnd 4+ .
I waited for him to sms me , at th pillar , under th mrt tracks .
I waited , and waited . D:
And i thought he was back home slp-ing , cos he was tired .
I sms-ed him if he was at home , and conitnued waiting ..
He didnt rply .
So i guessed he must be at home resting lerh barh .
So i slowly walked home .
And whn my hp vibrated ,
I dare not make myself think tht it was him .
Cos if i did , and it wasnt him , i would be ..
Hehs . Sad ? Lol .
Okhays enough of that .

It rained and i didnt go vista .
I didnt know how to go thre , and
It wouldnt be enough for me to reach home on time .
So i walked home . I walked pass fushan .
Is at thre for awhile .. Thinking of stuffs ..
Stuffs .. Tht will make me .. Kinda sad ..
But wells . I tried to stop myself from tearing ..
Whads happened has happened . Whad can i do ..?
I sat thre , continued waiting for his rply .
I got ALOT of mosquito bites x___x
They sting me ..
I hope they suck away my sadness too ..
Suck th reasons for my depressions away ..
Suck it all up ..
Just do it ..
I dont care if i get dried up aft th process cos im just full of depression ..
I just want it all gone ..

Why am i overall sad today ..?
Why do i have to force a happy face and a smiley in sms-es ..?
Why cant i just be myself and .. And ..
Argh .

This is NOT an ideal way of living my life . Argh .
But i still have to . I have no other choice ..

Nope . No other choice ..

I dont know if i can continue on like this ..
I've felt this before .. It's not suppose to come back to me now that its over .. No .. It shldnt .. It has to be me . It has to be in my why such things happen .. I guess th rsults is gna be th same ..
2years or not , it doesnt take long to find out ..
If its gna work well , its gna be .
If its gna end an unwantedd ending , its still gna be .
It just determinds how weak i am , how srs my problem is ..
I hope i had learnt my lesson .
I rli wish .
I dont want it coming back for me ..
I want it warm ..
It's getting colder ..
Colder and colder ..
My keypad's wet ..
My table is wet ..
My fingers are wet ..
My face is wet ..
It's gna start raining again in me .. Soon ..
I predict .. It's gna start a storm and my heart will be pierced ,
Once again , into thousands of pieces , lost and this time ,
Maybe never be found ..

- .. .. .. -

Planned to give sth to Jromeh c:
I did it just before i went out . Hahahahs .
Which made sally walk walk in cold storage for quite awhile before i finally reached cwp .. x:
Hahahahs .
I have srsly lost my sense of drawing .

How am i to cope whid art lessons next year ..?

&happy one mnth , hope to see you soon :D

I need someone ..
Who needs me ..
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