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Saturday, August 30, 2008

Day #11

It's still Bleeding, My heart .

My hand still hurts xD
Si CaoGe !
Hit till so damn hard fr whad sia ?!
*&^%$#@! DDD:
Just merely a sicsors paper stone game nia !
Need bully girl till ldt D:
Grr ! UnGentleman !
Don't think you can sing i scared you horh ! xD
And while i was typing th last sentence,
I typed
"Don't think you can sink i scared you horh ! xD "
By ACCIDENT~ :DD
Btw, It's now still blueblack .
My hand .
He go hit till my vessels BABOOM till like whad sia .
And thre i was, squeezing his hand,
Trying to bear th pain .
As this cannot be compared to th pain in my bleeding heart ..
But in th end, I still follow him go buy drink D:

Vincent figured out my blog ><
I though all along he go sally blog got see
her links thre gt my blog lorh .
And th reason why i didn't ..
Like .. Erhmm ..
Tag him whn i visit his blog,
It's simply bcoz ..
I have a feeling,
If DRYL doesn't talk to me,
Neither will Vincent, Ben, and CO. .
So .. I thought,
"If, If I tagged Vincent's/Ben's blog, Will I somehow get a scolding ?
To leave them alone ? And let them continue living th life of
Anti-Jaslyn-ess ..?"
This too hurts my heart .

I was reminded of how i wept
at th playground on this year's tcher's day,
below my hse,
trying to catch a glimpse of him ..
Sally's shoulder was so comforting ..
:D
THANK YOU SALLY ~
:DD
And Jiaying was also trying to make me calm down ..
THANK YOU JIAYING ~
:DDD
I'm sry jiaying i didn't pei you to
Th bustp ..
cos ..
I wanted to quickly go home,
Quickly let sally cook maggi mee,
Quickly eat,
Quickly change,
Quickly go down ..
And maybe ..
I can see him again ..
But well ..
That was just my wishfull thinking ..
While having my lunch whid sally,
numerous AquaTimez ringtone kept playing ..
And i didn't pick it up coz ..
It's just curry chicken calling,
If im not wrg, pestering me to be quick .
But Whn th ringtone changed to Jay's QingTian,
I sprinted towards my charging phone .
Why ?
Cos .. Dryl's th one,
Making Jay's QingTian msg alert ring ..
But how did i know
That your rplies were ..
So cold ..
So Very Cold ..
I almost cried ..
But i beared through th brack in my fragile heart ..
"Who am I to HIM anw ..? For whad in th world ..
Does he have to be nice to me ..?
For whad in th world .. .. ..? "

Now munching on my left over popcorn chicken
from th kfc meal we ate just now,
I am now thinking,
If i ever do allow him to get out of my life ..

Vincent just msn-ed me .
After reprimanding me for not telling him my blog,
He strted to say tht ..
It wasn't him who didn't want to wave back ..
It was that he didn't .. notice me ..
He also told me tht ..
He wasn't sure if it was correct but ..
Whn i walked to th snack shop,
He was looking at me ..
I didn't know they were thre ..
But anw ..
Even if he did look at me ..
Th attention is gone ..
It's all gone ..

I find Vincent's words meaningfull ..
Let's give myself OMMS .


anw , since u hv broke with him hor.
Juz forget about everything k?
Get a new life , new start and a new goal

No point emo-ing after its already done

and whn i thought that it was him who didn't want
to get out of my life,
Vincent said,


Not he dontwan
Is u dont allow him

I guess it's true ..
I need to learn how to let go of his sleeve ..
And let him wander off whid ppl whom he want
to be whid ..
I have to ..
I don't want his shirt to tear ..
I don't want to ..

I need someone ..
Who needs me ..
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