Is this feeling forever ?

Friday, October 2, 2009

Day #9O

hahahhs . 1Omore to go till 1OOth post . It's dead , i know c: thanks jying for visiting x:

hear SOS-shine . :D nice and it kinda sings my feelings out l: at this point of time o:
Sometimes i have this sudden urge to cry .. and i feel like hugging someone . l:
sighs .. . .

Wells , i was bored , thn i go use photoscape go edit zy pict lol . Not sure if i can post it up here .. cos scared he scold x: gna show him 1st x: still need brush up on my editing skills l:

Sighhhs .

Thend ?

&EOY eoy ..

I need someone ..
Who needs me ..
9:18 AM

Friday, September 25, 2009

Day#89

Still a long way to go till th 1OOth post x:
EOY .. Ima need to pass AMATHS D:
I need help , desperate help D:
Dont know can get help from Leo not l: hmms ..
since i peh him go play tz he can help marh :D hees . let's hope so ..

Started playing PUMP at tz :D its coooooool !
my 1Obucks can last me for 2hours ! thts long ! :D
Still owe zy 1.5Obucks x: hees . thts th amt one game costs .
ex right ? D:

Last night i dream abt sth so funny x:
Th whole of sec3 in RS migrated to Japan :D
all in th same sch :D
thn its like , a boarding sch , everyone stays in th sch .
Thn , th happy thing is , i got a very shuaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii jap bffff ! :D :D !
Thn agnes cannot stop buying food from th sch canteeeen :D guess its nice barh x:
Jiawen was again , always whid fiona and claudia x:
Thn jiaying dont know whre x:
But alot of shuai jap guys laaaa ! :D
Now here comes th funny part .
Everynight , th will be a kungfu match in th parade sq . -__-
Thn got who watch this matches lehs ?
Cannot guess one x:
Th King and Queen of China -__-
They sat in tht sch th parade sq . Got one stage for them to sit one .
Thn its like , it doesnt fit !
Th kign and queen wearing china trad costumes , th robe and th dno whad , thn below th stage all th jap high sch students wearing shuai black un-trad sch uni ! :D
Funny ! :D i woke and laughed x:

I sms-ed jiaying abt my dream x: she said she wna a shuai jap boyf too ! :D hees .
Thn planning to migrate to Japan x:
LOL .
Now work hard in macs , get our pays , thn hopefully can get card by 18 , thn off we go ! :D
Thn go thre swap here swap thre thn daddy pays for it all in sg x: Hees ! LOL !

Nice right x: Im so highhhhhhhhhh ! I'm coming shuai jap boyfffff ! ~ :D

&Pls let dreams come true :D

I need someone ..
Who needs me ..
10:18 PM

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Day #88

Got bitten by mosquitoes -__-
Today was .. rli a very sian day . So sian i didnt talk whn i went out whid parents .
So sian i called JJ to chat at Darren's hse . So sian i almost cried in my grandmarh's hse .
Today was rli rli sian . Sian nehhhh D:

Played solitaire on my hp till my eyes watered and couldn't see th shapes clearly .
I couldn't differentiate a spade and and a club . So i sat on my grandmarh's too-soft sofa , and tried to slp . It was so soft , i rli cannot slp . And i was sms-ing zy . yawnnnns .. Thn ltr on , he went to slp , cos he tired . Thn khay lorh o: I survived alone x:

During dinner , i saw a baby girl , sitting in a baby chair . her father was feeding her whid a spoon . all th girl needs to do is just sit at her baby chair , open her mouth and say ' ahhh ' for th spoon to go into her mouth . Thn horh , whn her father wna feed her , she open her mouth . 'ahhh' thn , th father look up and talk to his friend , leaving th spoon 1inch from her mouth . 'ahhhh' and th spoon still doesnt go in x: she just sit thre looking at th spoon whid her mouth wide . 'ahhh' LOL funny larh x: thn sudd in th mid of th dinner i burst out laughing x: it was so not like me today lorh , whole day nvr talk , sudd laugh during dinner in a foodcourt . Oo

But today , my dad kinda .. didnt scold me much barh . Whn he bored , example in th lift , he would have this .. concerned look on his face . thn he will touch my face and ask , 'why so moody ? keep sulking arh huhh ?' he did this several times in IMM today . He didnt even scold me whn i got lost from my bro . usu he will say , 'eh can be more enthusiastic to your surrounding and not listen music till lost can or not?'
Today he was like , not ? I got lost from my bro two times . whn we were out of popular , he just bought a compass for jordan marh , thn he ask him , 'anything else to buy ?'
jordan shook his head . Thn daddy turned to me , ask , ' you lehs ? need buy anything ? '
I was shocked he asked tht qn , cos usu if i wanted sth , he would ask me buy myself , using my own moneh . he ask worh o_O thn i ans lorh l:
' erhh .. yeaa . i needed to buy paintbrush for art . '
thn he was like , almost immediately , headed back for popular .
Thn i kinda managed to pull him back by saying ,
' but not from popular one . popular one very ex . i wna buy from Daiso . cheap . and tcher say good . '
He looked at me and said , ' Daiso ? how you know cheap ? '
' Daiso 2bucks right ? '
' Thn how you know good ? '
' i used tht lol . '
' diff art need diff brush worh . '
' Yeaa and i need buy round brush for batik , if we doing it again . i had a hard time doing it whid a flat brush . '
' oh .. thn just now i go Daiso you nvr say want buy ? '
' cos you say you going cut hair marh .. i didnt know you going Daiso . '
' oh ohs .. '

Weird , calm conver . Thn whn we went up th escalator , he handed me 5bucks . Shocked , again . he thn told me to go buy my brush , thn change 3 bucks rturn him . Thn while jordan and i wnt into Daiso , he went out to smoke .

Thn for th rest of th day , i was quiet . thre was sth abt my unusual quietness tht led me to play com one also x: funny lol . but let's go in sequence ;D

At IMM , we went to buy th ji pa thing . add pepper and chili powder one . nice :D whn buying it , daddy like , turn and ask me if i wanted anything . i shook my head . jordan nodded , say yea i want more chili :D thn daddy went to pay . i stared at th lady preparing th snack . well .. past experiences tell me tht i shld ask her cut it smaller if i wna eat tht . so i ask her help me cut smaller piece lorh o: thn bro shout from behind me , 'auntiiiiiie ! deng yi xia ke yi bang worh fang duor yi dian .. na ke and na ke marh ? :D ' Th auntie smaile lol P: as if she thought he was cute . okhay larh , quite P: thn i took th packet . i ate one , thn gave it to my bro , thn to daddy . aft tht daddy say he felt like eating mee rebus . thn went to this shop , queue up . i went over to jordan thre , ate another piece and went back to daddy . daddy ask me , ' whad you doing here ? Oo you want eat ah ? ' i shook my head . ' oh .. '

His food rdy . thn he move his tray to th cashier . he ask me want drink not . thn i think for awhile . tht's kinda normal for me marh , to think for awhile before giving an ans . but he didnt seem to rush me worh today . thn i walked over to jordan , ask him whad he wna drink . i came back ltr , say to daddy , ' jordan say he want green tea . ' he wasn't angry whid me like i thought he would be . he asked me a qn and i walked away ? he usu would have scolded me for tht . but he didnt . he said okhay and i went to get th drink , at my normal pace . my normal pace was VERY slow to him .. but again , he didnt scold . weird .

thn aft tht he wanted to eat at burger king . lol . thn while eating onion rings , he tried to like , talk , mostly to get my attention lol . to get me talking . well , i did talk , but not much .

thn yeah at my grandmother's hse , sms zy , zy go slp , i almost cried . and yeaa . sofa too soft .

Back at home , whle waiting for my bro to finish using th toilet , i watched intitial D . watch till my dad ask my , ' you bath alr not ? ' i shook my head .
' hvn ? thn why sitting here watching dvd ? '
' oh .. i waiting for jordan marh . thnw atch lorh . '
' oh .. go bathe now lorh . '
thn i go bathe .
aft bathing , i went back watching initial D . aft awhile , daddy called from his room . i went into his room lorh . he ask me , why i nvr ask for com . is it bcoz i know i wont get it or i dont feel like playing . thn i told him th truth lol .

' I didnt feel like asking . '
' oh ? you dont feel like playing ? '
' i feel like playing . but dont feel like asking . '
' huhh got like tht one ah ? '
' yeaa . those days i nvr play com is cos i didnt feel like asking . '
' so now you feel like playing ? '
' kinda .. yeaa . '
' so you wna play ? '
' erh .. yea . '
' thn go play lorh . stop whn jordan stop . '
' why ? '
' whad why ? he stop you stop lorh . he just started . 2hours . '
' ohs .. '

thn i went back watching initial D . i wanted to finish this epi 1st cos my player cannot search -__-
and th why ? part , tht's my usual ans to sth lol .

so .. yeaa . im here , and i gtg . hees . c:

&I wish everyday could be as calm as this .

I need someone ..
Who needs me ..
7:33 AM

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Day #87

Ohs x:
and i think i have started another story :D

LUCY

Lucy is a ghost :D
She was a dancer . She got into th finale of her dream competition , . Yeah she got into it , cos she rli did practiced , hard . So hard . She got no parental encouragement . Both her parents died , making her an prphan . She's quiet , no friends to talk to . Other children in th orphanage mostly paikia :D She was also cursed , somehow o:

It's her turn , her turn to showcase her talents , to let her efforts pay off on th stage .
She dances , but slipped and fell . th jewel on her choker shattered , and that made her die . Her life was dependant on th bright red jewel a witch had gave her .

Thn she needs to find all th pieces of her jewel so she can finally rest in peace . she has to get th jewel back together and see th witch . most of th pieces were somehow recovered , but a small piece still lies hidden .

She thn haunts a girl , Shiika . Lazy to write lerh x:
This storyline i sketched in here is really brief .. and funny x:
But wells x:
Im on it :D

&LUCY

I need someone ..
Who needs me ..
11:42 PM

Day #86

After like so long , i finally came back to post c:

Th school hols have started , and im rotting at home D:

WHY ?!

Sally went for npcc . Agnes JY i think go work barh .. o:
ZY working also . Hmm .. me alone .

This one week is sooo gna be sian . Today is th last day of th hols lerh D;
Plus tml and tmltml . 3 more days . 3 more days to both the ending of my sian-ness and th new beginning of another sian-ness . Great .

Just came back from Genting 3 days ago ;D
Went into CASINO ~ :D hees .
It was so cool :D i went in and th 1st thing i saw was ROWS AND ROWS OF SLOTS !
Omg ! Nice lehhhhs ! Slots ! Its fun to play :D all you have to do is place your bets and pull th trigger :D cool yeaaas ? :D
But i prefer BlackJack :D
Give you th tension whn you decide to hit . Will it go burst ? o:
Yeaa :D
Bacarat ( dont know how spell x: ) fun too :D

I followed my father to th entrance of th casino .
" you want go casino ? "
" yeaa . But can meh ? "
" hey want try ? i try smug you inside th casino ."
and so , yea :D
I followed my dad to th entrance . a security guard was checking temperatures .
I stayed cool and followed daddy .
" beep ! "
He took my temp and took th next one , my maid . Pass :D
I took a deep breath as i stepped into th casino . 1st time in thre in my 15years of existance .
Whoa . :D SLOTS ! :D
Thn just right inside , i saw another security guard . he saw me , and mentioned me to stop .
Stop ? okhay lorh . Thn not only me worh . he also go stop my maid . -__-
my dad came in . He ask " whad ? "
" eh she cannot go in lah . "
" why ? "
" give ic . "
" nvr bring laa . "
" passport . "
" also nvr bring laa . "
" thn sorry sir . "
Daddy points at me , " she cannot go in ah ? okhay . thn this one also cannot ah ? "
Daddy points at maid .
security guard :
" er .. "
" maid leh . "
" er ohoh sorry sir . can go can go . "

**

We laugh siaa x: stop me still okhay x:
Look young marh :D :D hees .
But then stop my maid ?! HAHAHAHHHHS !
Th security guard is see our age or see height one siaa ?! HAHAHAHHHHS !
My maid shorter thn me half head x:
AND HE STOP US BOTH xDDD
Funnnnnnny larh he x:

Thn i cannot go in casino lerh o:
Daddy brought me to lan thn go back casino lol .
Hardcore gamer . l: hmm lol .
nvm lol .
cannot go in casino , i can play my mom th psp :D
Hees . Mom's psp also got gambling games .

Maybe this christmas , family gathering , can play Da Xiao again :D omg it was so fun can :D
I think this CNY , arh shaun khorh win . followed by .. Jordan ..? Oo '
hees . wna play again x:
Daddy as th banker very funny x:
But he bias one !
He let jordan borrow moneh from bank o:
Hahahhhs just overall , fun larhh :D

AND IT'S JUST TH BEGINNING . TH FEELING IM FEELING NOW . CAN YOU FEEL IT ? CAN YOU TELL HOW I FEEL ? IT SUCKS . IT BRINGS ME DOWN TO TH SEA , TH OCEAN . IT'S COLD , AND DARK . NO LIFEBOAT CAN REACH THT FAR . NO LIFE GUARD AND REACH THT DEEP . IM ALONE . GIANT SQUIDS , OCTOPUS . ITS JUST TH DARK . TH COLDNESS WHIDIN . ITS UNBEARABLE . IM STONING . IM TRYING BUT I CANT MOVE ON . IM STUCK . IM FREEZING . IM LOOKING FOR AN ANCHOR . A HEATER . ANYTHING I CAN FIND , THT WILL SAVE ME . BUT THRE SEEMS TO BE NOTHING OUT HERE . NOTHING , NOONE . ITS ME ALONE . SURVIVING , YES , TILL NOW . NOT SURE HOW LONG IT WILL TAKE BEFORE IT ENDS .

& TH NIGHT STAYS YOUNG .

I need someone ..
Who needs me ..
11:14 PM

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Day #85

OMG ! IT HAS BEEN SO LONG !
Now that facebook got interesting games , I lost the interest again to blogging . Hees . But then now , Renuga say must everyday blog one time for this english homework . Then blog lorh :D

WWW.JASLYNLOVESENGLISH.BLOGSPOT.COM !

So thre x:
My english blog :D
Hees .
I think all my posts very th long lehs x:
Me myself also tired of reading -____-
I can improve th ! Need improve on adding emotions . yeaaaa .

Ayyyyyyes sian sian sian .

OHHHHS !
I GET BACK MY HANDPHONE LERHHHH ! :D

Can feel free to sms me lerh :D hees !

&my fingers are numb .. P:

I need someone ..
Who needs me ..
1:45 AM

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Day #84

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JELYNNNNN
Hees .
Here wishes my laobu happy birthday :D
May your wishes come true ,
May light shine your way c:
That makes us how many years of friends lerh ?
Let's count .. Backwards ..

Sec3
Sec2
Sec1

Pri6
Pri5
Pri4
Pri3
Pri2
Pri1

K2
K1

Wows . 11 years :D
Hees . Ans you tried hard to convince yourself tht you're older thn me .
NO WAYYYY ! IM MUCH MUCH OLDER THN YOU ARRRREEEEEEE ! :D

TODAY
I had my another 2teeth seperated from my family of teeth !
4gone now ! 1min of silence for them :D
Ohs ohs ! I on RC on another page x:
And whn i turned to check , i saw jy wlaking in x:
Omg jy is a bglahhhh :D
Hahahs.
Back to my topic .
Let's see ..
My 1st 2 teeth tio pluck out one ..
Still in th plastic bag . Sally was frk-ed out whn she saw tht x:
Next time can use tht to threaten her :D heeeeeees !
Thn today pluck one ..
Is drowned in a sealed bag :D
Yawnnnns ..
Today abit more painful lol .. D;

Actually is 4jabs .
2downstairs , 2on top .
Thn th dentist started tugging at my downstairs .
( i know it sounds wrg but , yeah c: )
Thn i ouch-ed . Thn she shocked x:
Pain arh pain arh ? She asked .
Thn i said , yeah kinda .
Thn she go ask her assistance ,
" eh another catridge pls "
Thn my eyes widen in horror !
I faster say
" eh nono ! is whn you pull pull pain only ! no need jab th pain th ! no ! "
Thn she was like ,
" no cannot ! must one more ! if not ltr you pain ! "
Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaas ?!
I dig my own gravvvvve .
But since alr jab 4times earlier , this 5th jab didnt feel like anything lol .
I didnt knew th thing touched my gums lol x:
So she slapped my face lol .
Actually feel quite shuang x:
Ask , pain marh pain marh ?
Thn i shake my head x:
Thn she cont tugging at my teeth .
I enjoyed it x___x
Like she massaging my teeth x:
Hahahahhhs ! Thn pluck !
Awwwws th teeth come out x:
So cute lorh x:
Sally dont know how xin shang my teeth x:

It's getting annoying . I'm giving myself , us , some time . Till th 29th . Tht's it , 29th . If things hvn change by then , i'll make it change . It's hurting me , but this has to stop . I'll wait . I'll wait to see if anything will happen . If nth does by then , I'll make it happen . I'll make tht sth happen . I dont wish for it .

I srsly dont wish for it . But if you do , i will . Just show me some evidence . Just show me something called th heater doesnt exist . I'll do it .

Aft so many years of experience , i still think , being single is th best c:
I have nth to worry abt .
I can do whad ever i want to whid out caring abt his feelings .
I dont have to be stress over why he hasnt called .
Or how he now feels abt me .
Im not sure if i can still hang on till 29th .
But , bear this in mind , im doing this for you .

&Go think again .

I need someone ..
Who needs me ..
2:10 AM